Experiences, feelings, and other things

Wow where do I begin....I guess I will start with this week and back up to the past a little.  Yesterday in my Icon work family a co-worker in my moms dept was killed in a Motorcycle accident with  a truck in West Point. It is really hard to believe this happened.....

I would like to say how much I was touched by Brian's family recently , this has been long over due but I really enjoyed when Brian's dad came to visit, and the nice things he did for us, It  really was a nice week with him.  And to Brian's mom  for her awesome cards to us with personal messages  just to ME Thank you Karen it always means alot. 

I have never experienced anything like this before so this is a start in building a testimony, my faith is being tested right now ........... the feelings and the prayers that have been answered. One time I was given an answer so quick,  I was still sitting there for a minute after my prayer when thoughts were already there what I needed to do. I did what I was supposed to and the next day was my answer that I had prayed about.

 
 Ever since I was about 5 years old I said that I was going to marry in the temple, I will not settle for anything less than a temple marriage,  my struggle has been in many areas but its that focus that I have to be married in the temple that keeps me in a direction and determined.  I have alot to work on, but the day is approaching soon....

Fear and Faith

There isn't much going on in our household but there is ALOT going on with me right now inside....I decided to shift things and hit on a few  things that is going on with me,  it is so nice that I can come here  to the blog and put my feelings out there. So please bare with me as I tell things in the future just as a warning.

  Click here for some lessons on faith  I came across a link that helped me so much!!

I wanted to be able to come back and read things and remember what I learned later.  The whole journey started with my blog post in January "I DID IT' and it is still continuing............

This is what I know is true and without a doubt....... the process of changing our lives is at the very foundation of  our Heavenly Fathers plan for us,  it is  changing for the better. Everything is lining up for my future outcome right now.......

Trials.......

There's no other word to describe a trial other than they suck!!

You might as well just hang on and enjoy the ride, it isn't going away.  The last couple of weeks I have had my good days and bad days.  But the worst part hasn't happened yet....that's the bad part I kinda know what is still coming and I am dreading it big time.  Only just a handful of people  know a small fraction of whats going on, but only me and my Heavenly Father knows what all the details are. I read that he wont make the trial go away but he will help you get through it,  I know this is all about testing my faith, and the worst of all things that could possibly bust me up inside is going to happen.  I have been back to driving alot lately like I used to do years ago, when I am under a lot of stress I need to drive it off.....so if I wind up clear up in California ha ha I might stop at Disneyland the rides are funner there.

I did it!

I did something today that was very personal to me,  was it because I finally got brave?  or was it because I was tired of being pestered by the little voice inside me?  I think its both.  I have put it off for along time. It was a little scary, and I was not sure if I wanted to do this at all. Now I will just wait and see what happens, I guess if it was something that was meant to be than I should be more trusting and have faith, I know I did my part. I wanted to write about it, this is something that I want to remember. I did it!